...

hiding from the rain and snow
trying to forget but i won't let go
looking at a crowded street
listening to my own heart beat
so many people
all around the world
tell me where do i find
someone like you girl
take me to your heart
take me to your soul
give me your hand before i'm old
show me what love is
haven't got a clue
show me that wonders can be true
they say nothing lasts forever
we're only here today
love is now or never
bring me far away
take me to your heart
take me to your soul
give me your hand and hold me
show me what love is be my guiding star
it's easy take me to your heart
standing on a mountain high
looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
i should go and see some friends
but they don't really comprehend
don't need too much talking
without saying anything
all i need is someone
who makes me wanna sing
take me to your heart
take me to your soul
give me your hand before i'm old
show me what love is
- haven't got a clue
show me that wonders can be true
they say nothing lasts forever
we're only here today
love is now or never
bring me far away
take me to your heart
take me to your soul
give me your hand and hold me
show me what love is
- be my guiding star
it's easy take me to your heart
take me to your heart
take me to your soul
give me your hand and hold me
show me what love is
- be my guiding star
it's easy take me to your heart
standing on a mountain high
looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
i should go and see some friends
but they don't really comprehend
don't need too much talking
without saying anything
all i need is someone
who makes me wanna sing
take me to your heart
take me to your soul
give me your hand before i'm old
show me what love is - haven't got a clue
show me that wonders can be true
they say nothing lasts forever
we're only here today
love is now or never
bring me far away
take me to your heart
take me to your soul
give me your hand and hold me
show me what love is
- be my guiding star
it's easy take me to your heart
take me to your heart
take me to your soul
give me your hand and hold me
show me what love is
- be my guiding star
it's easy take me to your heart

"黑白"

最近几天，在工作场所有个我不熟的人。
他问我句我最不想听见的，“问题”!?
他问我: "为什么你还没有女朋友什么........的"
我回答了他，我不想酱快~~~
but我心里想的是这样
* 我为什么要跟你讲怎么多，我跟你很熟啊，你谁啊滚开啦，烦!!!
   有没有女朋友关你屁事，滚回去顾你档口啦，死矮仔!!!*

在加上陆陆续续度过的日子
我更想通了一件事!!

我是不是要，再次回到那我从前的生活方式呢？
的确那时候的生活我可以保护到我自己~
类似我高中生活，独来独往的个性，酷酷的表情，身边的一切都与我无关。
常过口的一句“无所谓”

就因为这样，所以我选择了~
再次的隐藏自己，现在只想着黑白平静的生活，
原因是
我知道没有任何人想被"爱"抛弃遗忘，留下一人，
但我没得选择，因为我早已被它狠狠的给放逐了，
现在我唯有选择了，过着那一个人黑白两色的生活。

我害怕我嫉妒的心灵，我孤单的心情。
因为每次有心事我却往往找不到人说，
只能憋在心里，慢慢的等它消失离去，
你们看我“无聊”只是表面，其实我是想用它来淡忘一切。
我孤单我有音乐陪伴
我嫉妒那些累了有的依靠另一半的人，(家人和情人是两回事)
我也会累，但我累也只能自己一个人扛~~~
“幸好”我有黑暗的过去，它叫会了我这些“锁”，这些“忍”
如果没有它的过去，我脆弱的内心早就垮了。

也或则换个方式说~~~
我眼光高，很会挑 （我身边的朋友长说的）
的确我会高了些，就么60分而已~~~过分，会挑吗？
是不是，就这样我找不到“爱”？
但我也老实承认我“被动”，我没“勇气”最求，我更害怕“失败”的感受。
我可以不当那之前是场爱情，我依旧是个单身汉，没变的事实。

但也不是仅仅感情事而已，还有许多的事

我选择这样“黑白”的生活~
but我会有分寸的过这样的生活，
我不会再像从前一样过度保护自己害怕不受伤害，
过度的逃避自己，看不看，跃不过那道“灰色地带”。
因为我早已看开“他离开我的事实”

我回到那样的生活，存属是想给我的内心平静。
因为黑白，没有色彩，就等于没有了多余的烦恼。
只要我内心可以得到平静快乐，我都愿意去尝试。

这一个人的黑白生活
虽然有时孤单的摧残，但也有自由无约束的~~~有好有坏

也许等到了某天某月，我遇到了她我才会结束我黑白的生活。
世事难料。